sleep tiems?

i don't have words to describe how physically tired i am.

toolips tulips

blogger seems to be acting weird in opera. i can't use the "edit html" tab, i have to use the "compose" tab. i really need to give google chrome a try.
yes, i know, there's firefox. it crashes constantly, though.

anyway. i dug out the close-up filters tonight. it's been awhile since i've used them with any regularity. the depth of field is insane! which can be fun, or can be annoying...
i should have have a white card to make the left side a bit brighter.

formosa tea house used to give out scented tulips. it's a nice scent, although i'm glad it's wearing off. i've had a migraine all day. every single sound, glimmer of light, scent was torture.
my uncle was shoveling outside and it sort of felt like ice picks in my brain.
naturally, this meant the phone rang off the hook and people kept ringing the doorbell.

sorry. unless you are screaming bloody murder, i'm not moving.

today a friend told me that his wife wants to separate. i have no idea how to help him. he lives many miles away, and i have little advice to offer on the subject.

he is a wonderful and genuinely caring person.

i am heart broken that this is happening to him. he speaks of his family with love and adoration.

the only advice i can possibly give, are words that would not be helpful so soon.

the photo i took today was to talk about exciting news happening this week.

but i haven't the heart.

maybe wednesday...

a little bit of sugar...

i got a cold at the first of december. pretty nasty sinus cold. it's lingered ever since and has now turned into a sinus infection.

sinus infections are horrendously painful. i would not wish one on anyone. my face & teeth always hurt, but the real pain comes in waves. when it's at it's peak, it feels like my jaw bone is being crushed and hot pokers are being driven down into the very core of my teeth. last night the pressure moved up to my eye, & back to my ear.
i have a bottle of tylenol 3's from a knee injury so i took one the other night. i may as well have just drank the glass of water for all the good it did.

the fact that most of the pain is directed into my eye tooth had me very worried. this is all happening on the left side of my face, which is the side the cleft pallet is on. i will eventually lose my front teeth due to a bone graft done to fuse my top jaw. so there was concern that the pain was actually my eye tooth (directly beside the graft site) dying.

i went for xrays today and they showed a relatively healthy tooth. so unless something totally crazy is going on, the only logical diagnosis is a sinus infection.

all things considering, i'm glad. a sinus infection just needs antibiotics. a dead tooth needs to be pulled.

this is the first time i've taken antibiotics in a long time. when i had my hernia surgery earlier this year, i wasn't even given them.

looking at this picture, i should have had a white card in front.